" I am my own muse. The subject I know best. The subject I want to better." - Frida Kahlo
Both of you know that we have been co-habitating for quite some time, which is cool, seems like we have made it this far, and we are still alive. So Ladies we are coming together in this letter to reflect on how well we know ourselves, and what we need to become a better us. Well first let's take a look at how far we have come. We seem to always put a ton of Blame on Momo for the drug use, but Monica you are the one who could throw back a bottle of Hypnotic all by yourself, (we were all there as one) We even made a term up that our circle of could use for code, to emphasize time to smoke "safety meeting" or when someone was coming "incoming" or instead of calling it by it's name calling it "cream" or "hope". Making up an excuse for why we are parked on the side of the road hitting the pipe, or in the storage room at restaurant, or making someone walk in rain because I was trying to get back to Serena's to get back smoking. I am pointing my fingers at you Monica, cause you know Momo didn't even exist at that time. Things like this we should share responsibility for as a whole. We wear many hats, we are a wife, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a friend, a co-worker, an alcoholic, a drug addict, a product of immature parenting, making us a covert narcissist. Are we bad at all these labels??? Of course we are, we super suck at everything we try to do. Have we ever let this stop us??? Crickets (chirp, chirp) we get knocked down almost everytime. So Ladies the one thing we have to do to become better is being an amazing Mom. Everything in the past no longer matters, everything is different now. We are now examples of what we want our girls to be. We have to be better so that they can better. We can not fail at this it is way to important. Even on the days when we feel like we are doing everything wrong. I know you all feel it, that feeling that this is right. Like we were meant to raise these two girls.
So Ladies I assume you feel like me when I say all the things from our past might not have been all bad choices and wrong doings, but a mix of good and bad that makes us who we are, I regret nothing and neither should you. We have been through it together, and we always will. Period.
Love y'all,
Skeeter AKA Pieta, Monica, Momo, and of course "Mommy"
This Blog is dedicated to my girls. Skyllar and Neva. Hope y'all know how proud I am to be your mom. This family is my life. I will do what it takes to be what you need no matter what.
