Just about my entire life I have noticed that I wasn't like everyone else. I never had a hard time making friends or being accepted. My mom raised us to be open-minded to understand that everyone is not the same. None of us was meant to be like anyone else. Yet we tend to try to camouflage ourselves within each other so that we don't stand out.
Kurt Cobain was and continues to be a legend in a world that may not have been ready for him. He changed the face of music forever. Yes Nirvana was the band, but Kurt Cobain was the face and voice, of a generation that had no idea how to express their feelings. One day this man came out of nowhere and taught millions of teenagers, and young adults that they didn't have to walk around with a smile on their face. They didn't have to accept the world as it was or how they were told to view it. They didn't have to conform or live the lives of their grandparents, or even parents. In turn I don't believe that Kurt Cobain realized how famous he was going to become. When the weight of being an icon is suddenly placed on your shoulders sometimes we need help to lift it up, sometimes we don't know how to ask for help to lift our ownselves. Being yourself is sometimes the easiest thing you can do, other times it can be the hardest. No one handles who they see in their reflection the same way. We also have a difficult time seeing what others see when they look at us. More times than not we are harsh on ourselves, we tend to call ourselves all the names that we think others are secretly calling us behind our backs.
How many people do you know that seem to be so unhappy with who they are because they are not being honest with the world. How many people do you know that appear to be artificially happy with who they are. Fake a smile so no one knows what's really inside. If I have learned anything from watching the pattern of human nature it is this, it's easier to tell people that everything is fine that you are all right that nothing is wrong. Once you let your guard down and open up to people you run the risk of being hurt. You're under scrutiny and suddenly people are handling you and your feelings with child gloves. Everything is fine, I'm all right, nothing's wrong just become so much easier to say out loud. It's better than I'm sad, I need help, or I am feeling wrong about everything. I am ready to end this all becomes the voice in our head that makes the most sense. Everything else feels like procrastination of something that eventually it's just going to happen. It has become a little more acceptable for anyone male or female to be able to express their emotions and their feelings. We have begun to take the time to listen to what people are trying to say rather than just pushing things to the back burner. Where my generation was told that crying is weakness it doesn't solve any problems. We were taught to push our emotions as far back as we could and suck it up. My mother's generation was taught that their opinions didn't matter. Kids should be seen and not heard, was the saying. Our grandparents where raised to be extensions of their family. All of them working to support their family as a whole, since the average family had more than four children. Some of them were able to go to school to get an education and some of them went straight to work to support their families. All of them had more responsibility then the average child of today.
So having a substantial amount of people around you does not necessarily mean that you are social in fact hiding behind a group of people is the best way to hide that you are unhappy and need help.
Ask for help when you need it. If you wait until it's to late you can not turn back.
